monday morning are hard for me. I spend all weekend with Marissa. Sometimes we leave the house and explore or shop, but more often than not, we are inside- enjoying the space we’ve created, basking in each other’s presence and love.
The relationship that I have with Marissa, is the most important relationship that I’ve ever experienced. Growing up, I had best friends and mentors, and of course my parents- but there is no other relationship that compares to the one I have with Marissa.
I’ve spent the last 44 months, encouraging my girlfriend to be the best she can be. I’ve spent the last 2100 days, believing in the redemptive, regenerative, and life-changing power of love. And I couldn’t have asked for a better experience.
I used to lay awake and wonder if, I’d ever be happy. And even now, I catch myself wondering when I’ll be happy. And I have to remind myself that I AM HAPPY. Life doesn’t look like i imagined: I’m not married to a handsome Texas man, with three kids, and a college degree. But that doesn’t mean I’m not happy. I passed happiness and went straight to exuberance about 3 years ago, haha! No, I’m not who I imagined and you might not be, either. But that doesn’t mean that you’re not happy. Find your happiness in the moments- the fleeting and individual moments. Treasure those. Soak in their presence and never stop believing in the power of self.
I’m only 22, and Marissa is 24. We have our whole lives ahead of us- to change our minds, our lives and our stories. But I pray that we never stop believing. I pray that we never stop believing in us. I pray that amongst all the bad stuff in life- the heart ache, despair, loss and loneliness- I pray that we always remember the magic that we found in each other and in ourselves.
Whatever your guiding light is, I pray you never lose sight of it. And if you haven’t found it, look inside of yourself- it’s in there: I promise.
Chronicles of Tasha 